When I wake up, the real nightmare begins...

When I am alone, my pain is constant and sharp. Without the support of my friends, I don't know where I'd be. It's hard to keep a clear head with rationality and understanding when emotion decides to manifest itself.

I've never felt so betrayed by an individual in my entire life.
The worst part is, I don't even think she recognizes it herself; it's like someone reflecting themselves/insecurities onto you, blaming you, not wanting to except their own flaws and referring that pain elsewhere. How can you say you understand others when you don't even fully understand yourself? I now can say I have a better understanding of what exactly was going on both sociologically and psychologically speaking within the events that recently unfolded in my life. An open mind and an open heart is key to growth. I just wish people would commit themselves to working harder at being open minded enough to be able to take a step back and examine themselves and others from different perspectives, all deep rooted feelings, emotions, and past experiences aside. How will you ever be able to feel and follow your heart when your mind is closed to begin with; how do you feel, when your mind is holding you back. Perhaps the apple doesn't fall far from the tree? Let's hope so, because my dad is a happily married pastoral counselor and doctor of theology, hah.

In conclusion, Today's Word is...

de⋅ni⋅al [di-nahy-uhl] –noun
refusal to recognize or acknowledge.


.....'The cogitations of my mind trouble me (Daniel).''